In bed. Staring at the ceiling. Mind racing with a million thoughts.
“Is there enough time?”
“Can I pull this off?”
“Will I be putting too much on my plate?”
“Will my self-care suffer?”
Ever find yourself feeling the overwhelm of those questions?
Yeah, me too. That’s exactly where I found myself last night.
Here I was, lying in bed, feeling the pressure of a looming deadline, grasping for sureness, and questioning my ability to rise to the challenge.
My mind searched desperately for answers, reviewing timelines and to-dos. Analyzing my rhythm of productivity. Recommitting to self-care rituals. And setting boundaries for creation.
In this race for certainty, I heard a soft internal whisper: “Be okay with not knowing.”
My mind began to slow.
“Be okay with not knowing” grew louder.
I paused to reflect.
“Be okay with not knowing.”
The truth is: As much as I can plan, prepare and try to predict, I don’t know if there’s enough time, if I can pull this off, if I’ll be putting too much on my plate, or if my self-care will suffer.
I don’t know until I find out.
And, most importantly:
I am willing to experience the answers.
To choose growth over perfection.
Uncertainty over stagnancy.
Breathing over thinking.
And giving this moment my all.